Letting go & getting it all out!

"When one door closes, another one opens..."

So a TON of stuff has happened within the past week. For those of you that don't know, i made the decision to put my two weeks notice in at my job and with that I had to move out of my apartment since my rent was paid for by my job. So now I am living with my dad.  It's funny because usually a big decision like that would take me weeks to figure out, but this one took only a few hours after a dramatic series of events took place within my office. Although I put in my two weeks and was supposed to work until August 11, I got "let go" after working a 12 HOUR SHIFT because "I'm too much of a perfectionist." Yep, thanks for USING ME. The good thing is that I never have to deal with some of those sorry people ever again :)... or their bullshit.

Although all of this was so hard to swallow, I've already gotten over it and the "letting go" all happened yesterday. It surprises me that I am no longer upset about it, but I think it's because I know how ABSOLUTELY ridiculous the situation was, and I am glad that I am out of that place and able to move on with my life. I no longer have to deal with all that mess every single day ever again. I put all of myself into that job, and to be treated the way I was shows me just how poorly that place was ran.

I'm very thankful to all of my friends and family for all the support they have given me within the past week. They have kept me sane when I was completely down. They all dropped everything to help me and I'm blessed to have the people in my life that I do. THOSE are the people that really matter in life... not the ones that bring you down. And it's funny how the best person for me within the past week has been my baby Ralph... funny how a dog can be the one that keeps you going, but he has!

Although the past week has been a huge change for me... moving out of my apartment, quitting my job, and moving in with my dad... I'm excited for what's ahead of me... which is also strange for me to be saying so quickly after all of this mess. I have been more optimistic today than usual... someone check my temperature lol. But I guess I'm growing up and learning how to move on.

So, for the happy part of my story... I am going to intern tomorrow for an AWESOME event planner in Houston. I met her at the Bridal Extravaganza in Houston (I went to it not because I am wanting to get married anytime soon but because I want to be an event/wedding planner) and she was amazing... so personable. We have been emailing back and forth and now I get to intern for her tomorrow at a cocktail party :) I'm very excited to get a taste of what I want to do later on in life... and maybe this is just the career this "perfectionist" needs because the clients will appreciate that I want their event to be as perfect as possible!! And then other than that, I will be spending time with my mom later on in the week, which is long overdue since I have been working so much, and then I will take a mini-vacation with Cole this weekend to either Galveston or New Braunfels. I'm sure not letting anyone rain on my parade. And I'm not gonna let myself stress about getting a new job until next week... I deserve to let myself have a break for a bit!

So, here's to SLAMMING that last door shut and opening a new one. I hope that behind this new door I will find an easy-going job that satisfies me and I hope that my positivity holds up!

Wedding Fever

"Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe." -Gail Devers

Ok, so don't freak out cuz of the title that I have typed. I can assure you that I am NOT wanting to get married anytime soon at all, I promiseee. I've just been having wedding fever lately because I want to be a wedding planner SOOO bad. Recently I have found the best magazines with the cutestttt wedding ideas in them and I want so badly to plan a freaking wedding! But not mine (yet) lol. 


The sad thing is whenever I plan my wedding, I'm probably going to be depressed after the wedding day is over. Sure I just got married and all (no big deal), but no more planning the decorations and coordinating the theme and picking the dress, how sad :( 


Anyways, if you know of anyone wanting help with planning their wedding, I'd love to help! Hahaha. When I tell people that I want to be a wedding planner I usually get a response like "Oh, but then you'll have to deal with Bridezillas... blah blah blah." And the thing is I know it'll be annoying to do that but I feel like the joy of planning such a tremendous event would overcome the annoyance of the bride. I just gotta keep my dream alive and see where it takes me...

St. Simons Vacation

"Our memories of the ocean will linger on, long after our footprints in the sand are gone."

-Author Unknown

I can't believe how long it has been since I've last written a blog! I guess i was too consumed with finishing up the semester and being busy with work. Anyways... since then I've been enjoying my 2 1/2 week long summer before summer school starts :( Although 2 1/2 weeks is way too short for a summer, I've enjoyed it! I have seen lots of family, hung out with friends, and most importantly took a vacation to GEORGIA!! 

Two days ago, me, Cole, my mom and Steve got back from St. Simons Island, Georgia. For those of you that don't know, Steve goes there once a month for business, so this time, me and Cole got to tag along! I was excited to go because I had been before, about 4 or 5 years ago, and I just had fond memories of it because it is such a beautiful, peaceful place. Cole had never been to Georgia... or St. Simons more specifically... and he fell in love. He talks about how he wants to move there after finishing school. 

While we were in St. Simons, we got to do all sorts of fun stuff! We shopped at the village (which is sooo cute), we kayaked (thank you mom for not tipping us over :)), we rode bikes all around Jekyll Island and St. Simons, we laid on the beach (and got tan!), we painted pottery, we ate tonsss of food and most importantly...we relaxed! It was so nice just to take a vacation and enjoy new scenery. Two or three times during the trip, I stopped to thank God for giving me the opportunity to be there enjoying life... that's how you know life is good! I was glad I had time to "stop and smell the roses." 

Here's a pic of me and Cole biking around St. Simons Island. It was my favorite thing to do there :)

I'm sad that I'm not "on island time" anymore and relaxing, but at least I got the opportunity to go there! I'm trying to get back into the swing of things, but its not so easy :( 

Decisions, decisions...

"The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn."

-David Russell

This quote is pretty much my freaking life story. Any of you that know me well know that I absolutely HATEEEEE making decisions. Whether it be an important decision like choosing which school I want to go to or even something silly like deciding if I really want to buy this shirt... or if i should wait and get that other one I saw at the store before (and then I decide to buy both and then I regret it and end up taking one back because I shouldn't have spent the money in the first place). Anyways, you get the point that I hate decisions.

My mom is STILL probably annoyed at me for how long it took me to decide if I wanted to quit gymnastics or not lol. Gymnastics was MY LIFE and for me to decide between quitting and getting a different life or staying in it to pursue college gymnastics was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I know I drove my coach and my mom nuts cuz I went back and forth every other day (or hour... or minute) with my decision.

Ok, remember I am a girl that has to go back to a single clothing store like 3 times (and try on the shirt once... ok, or let's be honest... twice more) before deciding if I should get it. Yeah... imagine that girl trying to make a decision about something that actually mattered!!! It's tough... let me tell you lol. My friends and family will be the first to admit that I am decision-making-challenged.

Anyways, decision making has knocked on my door once again... I won't go into the details of what I'm deciding between because its not really necessary, if you know me you probably know what it is. I'll just say that I'm basically deciding whether I want to continue on in something that frustrates me to no end every single day or take a risk and go for something that sounds so much better but will change a lot of things for me (but those changes might be for the good). Let's just say this will be difficult for me (of course) but after reading this quote below, I feel a little different about things because the only reason I'm afraid of taking the leap to the better sounding option is because of exactly what i just said, the "I'm afraid" part. Life shouldn't be lived in fear though. Read the quote and see what you think...

"Not all of your decisions will be correct. None of us are perfect. But if you get into the habit of making decisions, experience will develop your judgment to a point where more and more of your decisions will be right. After all, it is better to be right 51% of the time and get something done, than it is to get nothing done because you fear to reach a decision."

-H.W. Andrews

Finals=Sick Megan

I don't have a quote today :(

Soooo finals MUST be approaching... not that I can tell because of finishing last minute assignments and all... but because I'm sick! EVERY time finals come around I happen to get sick.    During last year's fall semester, I got swine flu... during this year's fall semester, I got a 24 hr stomach bug... and now that finals are approaching I'm getting sick again... I can feel it in my scratchy throat and runnnnyyyy nose! I'm already predicting chicken pox for next fall semester lol... just kidding. I don't understand why my immune system always lets its guard down around finals time but I'm beginning to think that I should be exempt from all finals. SHSU should understand and not compromise the well-being of one of their students to some silly little tests!

Comfort Zones

"Progress always involves risk. You can't progress to second base and also keep your foot on first." 

-Christie Mason

I feel like all my life I have had problems with stepping outside of my comfort zone. In my younger days, I didn't want to quit gymnastics because that's all anyone knew me for and if I quit then I didn't know what else I would do. At the end of my gymnastics-ing I HATED going to practice everyday for four hours. I HATED being there, but I was comfortable there, so it made it ok i guess? Then when I went to Baylor, I hated being there for the most part, but I was comfortable there so I didn't wanna risk going to another school. I don't understand why I stick with stuff that frustrates me like no other. I guess I really am afraid of getting out of my comfort zone. I really do want to keep my foot on first while progressing to second because I'm afraid of risk. I'm not so much afraid of being challenged, because I like a little push. I'm just afraid of trying something new and not liking it. I mean, I won't even try a new snow cone flavor because I don't want to waste a freaking $1.50 and not enjoy it. Isn't that silly? Here's to me TRYING to step outside my comfort zone from now on... it's gonna be difficult, but why should I just try to make myself be content with something that I absolutely hate? That's ridiculous! We'll see how this goes....

Canton=Happiness

"Whoever said money couldn't buy happiness simply didn't know where to shop." -Bo Derek

(They should shop at Canton.)

This past Saturday, me and Cole ventured to Canton. For those of you that are unaware of what Canton is... it is basically heaven. Thousands of booths with all sorts of stuff for sale... but the stuff that i enjoy most is the clothes and jewelry and shoes and accessories :) You can find almost anything and everything that you could dream of. I could spend everyyyy last penny that I have at Canton on all sorts of goodies.

Cole had never been to Canton, so I had to de-virginize him haha. I've had to do that alot... but not in the bad way that you might be thinking of that you shouldn't be thinking of lol... I mean he had never been to Kerrville, or Schlitterbahn (crazy, right?) or even the San Marcos Outlet Malls. That is what i de-virginized him on... not other bad stuff lol. Anyways, I think he had a good time. I think mainly he had a good time laughing at me when I saw cute dog stuff for Ralph and I'd go crazy. I just love that little pup and buying him stuff :)

Even though Canton kinda ate all the money in my bank account, I still had fun looking at everything. I bought lots of cute clothes... including 2 pairs of Miss Me Jeans (i wish i wasn't so addicted to these million dollar jeans, but they're so cute... and I must give credit to my way too sweet to me boyfriend who bought one of the pairs :)... please don't try to steal him from me) and I got a cute shirt that says make cupcakes not war... very fitting for me! All in all it was a great trip! Anyone who has not been to Canton must go! Best place to shop, EVER!